Do you pray about it?

I'm back from maternity leave... And so happy to be!

Though the transition back has been peppered with some overwhelm...tackling the pile up of 3 months of work, the not so elegant task of pumping every few hours, and my panic at tracking our insane childcare schedule to name a few contributing factors.
 
I've found myself wondering whether I can get it all done, or in my darker moments, whether it will all be ok.
 
I have had the honor of hearing so many of your stories over the years about moments of transition or insecurity. A new job. A new city. A change in your home life. A conflict at work.
 
In these moments, you, like me, wonder if it will be ok.
 
We wonder if we’re on the right path or if our expectations will match reality.
 
We wonder if we can tolerate the grief of disappointment or change. We wonder what's important and what we need to learn.
 
Amidst my anxious thoughts these days, a memory sneaks in:

It’s a little more than 13 years ago (I’m 21). I’m in the office with the minister—I know him well from the high school youth group retreats, but I am uncertain as to why I’m here aside from appeasing my mom.
 
We laugh a bit at the awkwardness of this new kind of meeting but settle into conversation about the matter at hand: I’m pregnant. It’s a surprise. What’s going to happen? What does it all mean?
 
I’m not entirely sure what we should talk about, so I ramble a bit about the situation and give him my best spin on how it will all work out.
 
He listens generously, and I let slip the truth that I simply don’t know what is ahead or how I will navigate it. He pauses and asks, “do you pray about it?”
 
I laugh out loud at the question. It seems a preposterous idea.

But occasionally his question comes back to me.
 
Sometimes I even ask you the question. More often, it comes back when I need to ask it to myself.
 
“Do you pray about it?”
 
My response still sometimes includes laughing out loud with cynicism.
 
But today, I ask the question and happen to open the book, Mastering Leadership.  

I read:

“Research and experience strongly suggest that spiritual practices, such as mindfulness, meditation, and contemplative prayer, accelerate our development through stages. In fact, the Unitive Self seldom, if ever, develops without a long-term spiritual practice.”
— Robert J. Anderson + William A. Adams

I’m affirmed yet again that prayer matters to my leadership… and to yours.
 
Still Harbor has developed chaplaincy for social justice service and activist groups based on this idea.
 
I know that spiritual practice matters - I have known this for a while, and yet, sometimes when it comes to the moments of challenge in my life, I forget to lean into it.
 
So, I’m going to meditate. I’m going to pray. And I'm going to help you find space to do so too—in your own way and time.
 
I’m glad to be back and look forward to connecting soon!
 
Lots of Love,

Perry.jpg

P.S. Email me at perry@stillharbor.org to find out more about our chaplaincy programs and services. Call or text: +1-617-682-0259